How Tragic

When the assignment to write a tragedy was first assigned, I was not looking forward to it in the least bit. However, my opinion began to change when my group was trying to decide which dark truth to write about. We had a fairly large list, and this list caused me to think about how often Christians pretend like there is nothing hard about being a Christian because they do not want anyone to think badly about their religion. This caused me to consider whether or not I would tell the truth about my struggles to someone who is not a Christian.
Also, while watching the different tragedies, I learned quite a bit (which in all honesty was unexpected). While I am not one to be overly emotional, these tragedies did cause me to seriously reflect about my life. Watching the first group (who were AMAZING actors), I was struck by the idea that a pastor would be living a life like that, pretending to be perfect, and hurting his son in the process. However, I often find myself doing the same thing. By no means do I abuse anyone, but I make mistakes and try to cover them up, afraid that my mistakes will be uncovered and people will think ill of me. While I do not think that I've ever crushed someone as the pastor and his wife crushed their son, I know that I crush the heart of the Lord every time I sin-an act which is much much worse.
I was convicted the most while watching the last group's tragedy about judgment. The other tragedies were by no means inapplicable, but I just found myself relating to this area more. We all judge people every day, and our judgment is probably what turns people away the most. That was the part that most affected me- the idea that the protagonist might be the only Christian those people ever come in contact with. I always find myself living my life in a way that isn't necessarily bad, but certainly isn't great. The people I come in contact with that do not know Christ may base their idea of God off of what they know-me. I learned through watching this that I do not simply need to act better in front of these people, but I need to be better. I do not deserve Christ any more than they do, and I need to work harder to be a follower of Christ that actually helps the case for Christ, not hinders it.